2025-03-31

Gahhhh I have so much classwork due this week that I've made no progress in and also I have to do several tax forms and book medical appointments... I feel like I'm always waiting for a real break from everything where I can just, I dunno, live for a while. Like have time to cook myself nice things, read books, work on personal art and writing, explore the city a little. It just feels so far away...

2025-03-12

Got damn. 4 months on E and every time right before I take my estrogen shot I start freaking out and doubting whether I'm actually trans and considering detransitioning because like, shit, my parents don't know I'm doing this and I cannot safely come out to them and this shit is permanent. So I'm screwed if this all turns out to be a mistake. But then again I'm happier and more comfortable now and I've cried myself to sleep wishing I'd been born a girl and have been crippled by reoccuring gender dysphoria. So I guess don't overthink it?